I now know the reason for why I am so un naturally quiet. When my boyfriend comes home from work, he sits infront of the computer till he goes to bed. If I try to say something, all I get in return is "m hm". If I tell him he sounds uninterested, he says its because he is focusing or reading something on the net or whatever. If I have something to say, I end up just thinking it. And then forgetting it. I mention small things and he does not care, am I really that boring? And if I mention somthing we talked about, he never remembers it. So, I basicly have no one to talk to. The time I get to talk to someone is on the internet. My boyfriend does not even tell about his day on work. So if something funny has happened (which is quite often actually) at his work, I wont hear about it til we are with friends. So when we are with friends, I am so affraid of not being interesting enough, and I talk very low. So instead of talking I just listen in. And if I actually do have something to say I cant get it in to the conversation, cause Im either not loud enough or quick enough. The next subject it being talked about when I get in, and commenting on the last subject kind of just dies. At eventually, I feel I
have to talk, I dont really have anything to say. So I end up saying something stupid. It might keep the talk going for just a couple of minutes, but sort of never goes somewhere. And now I sound pathetic and pooring my heart out. But I have no one to share it with, so I just type it in here. And figures no one actually reads it. But I have gotten it off my chest. I guess I get rusty when it comes to talking to others. So thank you for "listening" to me
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