@ Spill ! - after "Boody" of courseweebleswobble wrote:who the f**k is?MadameButterfly wrote:Are YOU happy now in this stage of your life?boudicca wrote:Truth.
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truth between female friends no fuckinginvolved i'm afraid.weebleswobble wrote:who the f**k is?MadameButterfly wrote:Are YOU happy now in this stage of your life?boudicca wrote:Truth.
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Oops, don't mean to bring the party downAndy TG wrote:@ Spill ! - after "Boody" of courseweebleswobble wrote:who the f**k is?MadameButterfly wrote: Are YOU happy now in this stage of your life?
There is shyte in my life that is currently making me feel DREADFUL but its best left off of here! 
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not having a vagina, I couldn't possibly comment.........muchMadameButterfly wrote:truth between female friends no fuckinginvolved i'm afraid.weebleswobble wrote:who the f**k is?MadameButterfly wrote: Are YOU happy now in this stage of your life?
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@ Weebs - sorry to hear that mate - hope things improve asapweebleswobble wrote:Oops, don't mean to bring the party downAndy TG wrote:@ Spill ! - after "Boody" of courseweebleswobble wrote: who the f**k is?
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Woah Debs you didn't half pick a tough one there!MadameButterfly wrote:Are YOU happy now in this stage of your life?boudicca wrote:Truth.
I am feeling better at the moment than I have been for many years, as I had - well basically a nervous breakdown for want of a better phrase, last autumn... which had been a long time coming. Some of you know bits and bobs but it was brought on by a combination of a good few years of fairly disastrous relationships and the "Pure O" which I was only diagnosed with after 20 years of it worsening where it had finally progressed beyond neurosis into something even worse. Hell, when I "got" it, virtually nothing was known about it. And to make matters worse I didn't even have the most well-known version of it!
But I got put on some drugs (I'm not talking just antidepressants here, also neuroleptics which are pretty heavy going) which, though I hate to say it as I'm very much a skeptic of psychiatry, did seem to make a world of difference and bring me back to reality, which is an incredible relief as it is a lot less terrifying than the things my frazzled brain had started to conjure up. I was really very ill, too ill I was told even to see a psychologist - there is a certain point at which they seem to deem it useless to even try to reason with you and I was past it so they needed to dope me up first. Looking back they were actually quite right, I can't believe how out of it I was
Now I'm finally going to get to see a psychologist and I'm coming off the drugs (fortunately they don't see me on them long-term, I was just so severely depressed that I needed them to get out that hole), and I'm very hopeful as has probably been coming across from a lot of my posts. Every morning now I just thank Science that I don't feel like someone is holding a gun to my head all day long. You've no idea what a sense of relief that is, and I just want to make the most of every second I feel alright. And hopefully learn the skills so I never fall back down that rabbit-hole again.
So, in one sense, I'm ecstatically happy. Perhaps the most important sense - I'm functioning as a human being again.
Am I satisfied in all areas of my life - hell no, I'm terminally striving, my mum says I'm "driven to distraction". I have such high bars for myself that I think I'll always exist in a state of never being content with what I achieve, no matter what it is. I was a very high achiever when I was younger and I think that's stuck with me, even as my life has fallen apart I've always had this thing in my head of the standard I should be at.
But this gets into a bloody philosophical discussion about the nature of happiness and whether it is even achievable or indeed desirable. If human beings existed in a nirvana of pure content then we'd never do anything, life as we know it would cease. I know Buddhists say "desire is suffering" but I don't hold with that, I think being slightly discontent, even unhappy about certain things, is a very natural state.
So, in summary
- yes, I am pretty happy at the moment, though I hope I have a lot of good things to come in the hopefully not-too-distant future. Sorry if this post was rather heavy! Talk about TMI! I know this is meant to be a fun thread. But well.... that was the truth.
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That's why I always select "Truth" - I've nothing interesting or shocking to confess!Hexe Luciferia wrote:Basically, one person is being questioned by a bunch of fckuing pervs (Andy TG wrote:Fair Enough - so what rules do you know
One of the pervs asks the victim :"Truth or Dare"?. The victim answers (seriously p*ssing them pants in fear) either "Truth" or "dare", then the afore mentioned perv asks a question: if the victim said "truth", or dares the victim to do something (either disgusting or so embarrassing the victim will have to see a psychiatrist to remove the trauma after the game) if the victim said :"dare".
After the victim does what requiered either he/she repays in kind the perv or names someone else to be victimized by the others.
Trust me, it's hellishly wonderful when played drunk and/or "chemically enhanced" and when you passed your twenties.
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Awww... Claire! You know I love your long posts and now know what you're on about and I was missing in action about time this all happened to you love!boudicca wrote:Woah Debs you didn't half pick a tough one there!MadameButterfly wrote:Are YOU happy now in this stage of your life?boudicca wrote:Truth.
I am feeling better at the moment than I have been for many years, as I had - well basically a nervous breakdown for want of a better phrase, last autumn... which had been a long time coming. Some of you know bits and bobs but it was brought on by a combination of a good few years of fairly disastrous relationships and the "Pure O" which I was only diagnosed with after 20 years of it worsening where it had finally progressed beyond neurosis into something even worse. Hell, when I "got" it, virtually nothing was known about it. And to make matters worse I didn't even have the most well-known version of it!
But I got put on some drugs (I'm not talking just antidepressants here, also neuroleptics which are pretty heavy going) which, though I hate to say it as I'm very much a skeptic of psychiatry, did seem to make a world of difference and bring me back to reality, which is an incredible relief as it is a lot less terrifying than the things my frazzled brain had started to conjure up. I was really very ill, too ill I was told even to see a psychologist - there is a certain point at which they seem to deem it useless to even try to reason with you and I was past it so they needed to dope me up first. Looking back they were actually quite right, I can't believe how out of it I was
Now I'm finally going to get to see a psychologist and I'm coming off the drugs (fortunately they don't see me on them long-term, I was just so severely depressed that I needed them to get out that hole), and I'm very hopeful as has probably been coming across from a lot of my posts. Every morning now I just thank Science that I don't feel like someone is holding a gun to my head all day long. You've no idea what a sense of relief that is, and I just want to make the most of every second I feel alright. And hopefully learn the skills so I never fall back down that rabbit-hole again.
So, in one sense, I'm ecstatically happy. Perhaps the most important sense - I'm functioning as a human being again.
Am I satisfied in all areas of my life - hell no, I'm terminally striving, my mum says I'm "driven to distraction". I have such high bars for myself that I think I'll always exist in a state of never being content with what I achieve, no matter what it is. I was a very high achiever when I was younger and I think that's stuck with me, even as my life has fallen apart I've always had this thing in my head of the standard I should be at.
But this gets into a bloody philosophical discussion about the nature of happiness and whether it is even achievable or indeed desirable. If human beings existed in a nirvana of pure content then we'd never do anything, life as we know it would cease. I know Buddhists say "desire is suffering" but I don't hold with that, I think being slightly discontent, even unhappy about certain things, is a very natural state.
So, in summary
Sorry if this post was rather heavy! Talk about TMI! I know this is meant to be a fun thread. But well.... that was the truth.
But it's a circle of life my dear along with all these other things that get in the way and now as I see you here on HL as the boudicca I once know...you are on the road to recovery! And I'm back again to be here for you again if you feel that feeling like you once had and phoned me remember?! I'll never leave your side because of that Claire! You are my sistermidnight who like a younger sister to me! TRUTH! *sniff*
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yeah boudicca you earned respect in that post my dear! 
we all know that! (the respect part)
we all know that! (the respect part)
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Okay truth...oh dear...boudicca wrote:Ok now Debs, truth or dare?
I have a truth I really want to ask you....
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In all honesty! It's business, friends sharing and hardcore p0rn! 
Well if the MODS or ADMIN could look in our pm boxes they would confirm!
Well if the MODS or ADMIN could look in our pm boxes they would confirm!
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We are both out now boudicca! LOL!
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YAY @ Claire!boudicca wrote:Woah Debs you didn't half pick a tough one there!MadameButterfly wrote:Are YOU happy now in this stage of your life?boudicca wrote:Truth.
I am feeling better at the moment than I have been for many years, as I had - well basically a nervous breakdown for want of a better phrase, last autumn... which had been a long time coming. Some of you know bits and bobs but it was brought on by a combination of a good few years of fairly disastrous relationships and the "Pure O" which I was only diagnosed with after 20 years of it worsening where it had finally progressed beyond neurosis into something even worse. Hell, when I "got" it, virtually nothing was known about it. And to make matters worse I didn't even have the most well-known version of it!
But I got put on some drugs (I'm not talking just antidepressants here, also neuroleptics which are pretty heavy going) which, though I hate to say it as I'm very much a skeptic of psychiatry, did seem to make a world of difference and bring me back to reality, which is an incredible relief as it is a lot less terrifying than the things my frazzled brain had started to conjure up. I was really very ill, too ill I was told even to see a psychologist - there is a certain point at which they seem to deem it useless to even try to reason with you and I was past it so they needed to dope me up first. Looking back they were actually quite right, I can't believe how out of it I was
Now I'm finally going to get to see a psychologist and I'm coming off the drugs (fortunately they don't see me on them long-term, I was just so severely depressed that I needed them to get out that hole), and I'm very hopeful as has probably been coming across from a lot of my posts. Every morning now I just thank Science that I don't feel like someone is holding a gun to my head all day long. You've no idea what a sense of relief that is, and I just want to make the most of every second I feel alright. And hopefully learn the skills so I never fall back down that rabbit-hole again.
So, in one sense, I'm ecstatically happy. Perhaps the most important sense - I'm functioning as a human being again.
Am I satisfied in all areas of my life - hell no, I'm terminally striving, my mum says I'm "driven to distraction". I have such high bars for myself that I think I'll always exist in a state of never being content with what I achieve, no matter what it is. I was a very high achiever when I was younger and I think that's stuck with me, even as my life has fallen apart I've always had this thing in my head of the standard I should be at.
But this gets into a bloody philosophical discussion about the nature of happiness and whether it is even achievable or indeed desirable. If human beings existed in a nirvana of pure content then we'd never do anything, life as we know it would cease. I know Buddhists say "desire is suffering" but I don't hold with that, I think being slightly discontent, even unhappy about certain things, is a very natural state.
So, in summary
Sorry if this post was rather heavy! Talk about TMI! I know this is meant to be a fun thread. But well.... that was the truth.
Delighted to hear that, seriously.
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Sorry, was bedtime here! Was actually starting to get cross-eyed thanks to the extra space between me and my laptop filled by the keyboard.MadameButterfly wrote:[Let's see how far we can dare each other...Z has faded on me so I'm out really...unless the playing parties decide to bring me in again...
I'll try to think of something
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Well if the MODS or ADMIN could look in our pm boxes they would confirm!
now that's what i call an inbox!!
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Yes you think away!Obviousman wrote:I'll try to think of something
Right then Andie!
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Wonderful! In all the years having sex, what is your most favourite position and why?
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