Heartland

Okay. First of, sorry for creating so many threads.
I know the rues on "lNo spamming" and such, just there's a lot on my mind that I feel would be best to say here, and I saw that the other thread was closed.

Alright, I'm feeling rather glum lately, to say the least.
As in the other one "The depressed may lead the depressed"
Just post what's up, and We'll do our best to comfort.

As for me, everything.
First off, I've got a horrid throat infection 4 weeks before a recording session in the studio. Which wouldn't be so much of an issue, if I didn't have to sing for 5 hours. It feels so painful, and I just want it to stop.
I would try to sleep the pain away, accept I have a slight case of insomnia. Probably bought about by Anxiety and stress and pressure of EVERYTHING that's currently happening in life.
Been diagnosed with dysthymia (Chronic depression) which really sucks.

Yeah, and I'm also looking for some feedback on a couple of my bands songs... if you wouldn't mind, and if you're interested I'll post 'em.

And again, in advance, sorry and thank you.

Get some hot whiskey & honey down yer neck for your throat

Let's hear your songs

Pista wrote:Get some hot whiskey & honey down yer neck for your throat

Let's hear your songs

I'd love to

This one's called summer's eyes, I only noticed the resemblance to sweet dreams are made of this after I uploaded it...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B2yVrFUIne8
This one's got a friend singing on it, as I was unable to write lyrics or a tune to it, I asked them to do it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bHil5Eq1Lxc
this seems to be the most popular out of all of my songs, it's got over 400 views now... (Which, in fact, is a huge achievement for me xD)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YMJzb1L_vBU

Pista wrote:Get some hot whiskey & honey down yer neck for your throat

Let's hear your songs

Second this.....also I highly recommend gargling with Apple Cider Vinegar, it has worked for me when I have done gigs etc with sore throat/cough etc...it is hideous and extreme and you will have to swallow it also...but it works, I kid you not. Also good for warts!!!!!!!!

Just call me "the witch", everyone else does!!!

I'll have a gander at your songs now....

RainDance sent a shiver up my spine as soon as the vocals kicked in.
Nice work dude.

blackandgold65 wrote:

Pista wrote:Get some hot whiskey & honey down yer neck for your throat

Let's hear your songs

Second this.....also I highly recommend gargling with Apple Cider Vinegar, it has worked for me when I have done gigs etc with sore throat/cough etc...it is hideous and extreme and you will have to swallow it also...but it works, I kid you not. Also good for warts!!!!!!!!

Just call me "the witch", everyone else does!!!

I'll have a gander at your songs now....

I'd love to... But the thing is, I'm only 15

And thanks! I'll tell her you liked it

i'm just depressed, again. i come to point that i know that pills might be the right solution.

i have had a f**k awful day in a rubbish week. have been to shop and have cake and crisps. if that doesn't work, i'm going shopping tomorrow.

LyanvisAberrant wrote:

Pista wrote:Get some hot whiskey & honey down yer neck for your throat

Let's hear your songs

I'd love to

This one's called summer's eyes, I only noticed the resemblance to sweet dreams are made of this after I uploaded it...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B2yVrFUIne8
This one's got a friend singing on it, as I was unable to write lyrics or a tune to it, I asked them to do it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bHil5Eq1Lxc
this seems to be the most popular out of all of my songs, it's got over 400 views now... (Which, in fact, is a huge achievement for me xD)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YMJzb1L_vBU

Good work kid, the Big Man approves

Bartek wrote:i'm just depressed, again. i come to point that i know that pills might be the right solution.

Sad to hear that Bart, i've had a bit of a "Vagina" of a day as well But loud music and alcohol works just as well

emilystrange wrote:i have had a f**k awful day in a rubbish week. have been to shop and have cake and crisps. if that doesn't work, i'm going shopping tomorrow.

Ditto, but I've no cake nor (tasty) crisps. And I don't really fancy cake or crisps, anyway. I'd really like a hug, actually, but there's no one to provide me with such a thing in "real life."

as i started, to not act like said 'vagina'; it's not about day more about years, classical case of depression- i just can't handle that low, low attitude. not so rainbow thoughts. even like now, i know what's going on and yet i simply can't get out from that shadow area. one day it will pass, but it will back again, and again. it's freaking pointless. i don't want to buy time from someone who will pretend that he/she will care about my problems, 'cause i know what's going on and what is the source of that, so pills it's the only good solution for that.

Bartek wrote:i'm just depressed, again. i come to point that i know that pills might be the right solution.

Be careful going the pharma route, Bartek. That shit screws with your physiology in ways that science doesn't yet understand, yet shrinks prescribe this stuff as though it were candy. You've only got one brain; there's no telling what the long-term effects are or might be.

I was variously prescribed every antidepressant and anti-anxiety med going, over the course of the last 20 or so years. Did nothing to help my severe depression or anxiety, merely turned me into a zombie with a flat affect, and provided me with a laundry list of rather-frightening side effects.

Big Si wrote:Sad to hear that Bart, i've had a bit of a "Vagina" of a day as well But loud music and alcohol works just as well

Excuse me, but vaginas *rule*. How 'bout a penile day, instead?!

SINsister wrote:

Bartek wrote:i'm just depressed, again. i come to point that i know that pills might be the right solution.

Be careful going the pharma route, Bartek. That shit screws with your physiology in ways that science doesn't yet understand, yet shrinks prescribe this stuff as though it were candy. You've only got one brain; there's no telling what the long-term effects are or might be.

I was variously prescribed every antidepressant and anti-anxiety med going, over the course of the last 20 or so years. Did nothing to help my severe depression or anxiety, merely turned me into a zombie with a flat affect, and provided me with a laundry list of rather-frightening side effects.

that's not a good news. i trust you with that. in fact i know that pills is not very good in long term, but i simply don't a good long term solution.
i've been on that track many, many times and i know that will end one day, but i cannot control on anyway, that's just too tiring, energy consuming process. and i know that really affect on my social life in a way that it's far from what i need.

SINsister wrote:

Bartek wrote:i'm just depressed, again. i come to point that i know that pills might be the right solution.

Be careful going the pharma route, Bartek. That shit screws with your physiology in ways that science doesn't yet understand, yet shrinks prescribe this stuff as though it were candy. You've only got one brain; there's no telling what the long-term effects are or might be.
...

Absolutely seconded ... ... you were not the first person, Bartek, to get used to psychotropic drugs ...
AND these pills only counteract the symptoms ... so that you don't feel it anymore.

But if you don't learn to get yourself out of the emotional/intellectual mess, nothing will change.
Of course, with time and coincidenctial incentives you will feel better ... until the next down.

Stop thinking in long-run mode! Take/make the good things NOW !!!
Find some way to please yourself, instead of leaving your sweet Bartek in the dark lurge!

SINsister wrote:

Big Si wrote:Sad to hear that Bart, i've had a bit of a "Vagina" of a day as well But loud music and alcohol works just as well

Excuse me, but vaginas *rule*. How 'bout a penile day, instead?!

... ... exactly, as if all negative in this world came from one direction ...and always the other, preferrably ...

* Still I see some slight understanding for PMS in your post, Big Si ... fair enough ...

SINsister wrote:

Big Si wrote:Sad to hear that Bart, i've had a bit of a "Vagina" of a day as well But loud music and alcohol works just as well

Excuse me, but vaginas *rule*. How 'bout a penile day, instead?!

I was using the latin version, rather than the anglo-saxon, as it's seen as a swearword in countries outside of Scotland. The expression is very popular in both this city and country. People here use it in everyday speech almost as much as f**king.

http://youtu.be/vc3E7UkIzt4

That's a cracking wee boozer they're in, by ra way

And Big Hugs to the Bartman

it'll pass, eventually.

Big Si wrote:I was using the latin version, rather than the anglo-saxon, as it's seen as a swearword in countries outside of Scotland. The expression is very popular in both this city and country. People here use it in everyday speech almost as much as f**king.

http://youtu.be/vc3E7UkIzt4

*Sigh* Si, you should know by now that *I* know such things, sillyman! I was just giving you crap.

Bartek wrote:i'm just depressed, again. i come to point that i know that pills might be the right solution.

Flippin' heck Bartek!

Sending vibes to you from Hungary-land.

Stay with us. We'll see you alright

This one's called summer's eyes, I only noticed the resemblance to sweet dreams are made of this after I uploaded it...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B2yVrFUIne8
This one's got a friend singing on it, as I was unable to write lyrics or a tune to it, I asked them to do it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bHil5Eq1Lxc
this seems to be the most popular out of all of my songs, it's got over 400 views now... (Which, in fact, is a huge achievement for me xD)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YMJzb1L_vBU

Really good! I like your voice. The Kigdom of Memories is the best of these.
And vodka is the best protection from depressed Sometimes. But other time could make things even worse.

SINsister wrote:

Big Si wrote:I was using the latin version, rather than the anglo-saxon, as it's seen as a swearword in countries outside of Scotland. The expression is very popular in both this city and country. People here use it in everyday speech almost as much as f**king.

http://youtu.be/vc3E7UkIzt4

*Sigh* Si, you should know by now that *I* know such things, sillyman! I was just giving you crap.

Aye, I was quoting you but advising all and sundry (all them Spambots!), and jamesblastsgermannemesis too

Big Si wrote:

SINsister wrote:

Big Si wrote:I was using the latin version, rather than the anglo-saxon, as it's seen as a swearword in countries outside of Scotland. The expression is very popular in both this city and country. People here use it in everyday speech almost as much as f**king.

http://youtu.be/vc3E7UkIzt4

*Sigh* Si, you should know by now that *I* know such things, sillyman! I was just giving you crap.

Aye, I was quoting you but advising all and sundry (all them Spambots!), and jamesblastsgermannemesis too

... I'll learn it one day ...

Very down at the moment and quite scared an episode last week shows I do have a violent nature ( verbal only fortunately) . However in discussing this set back with my therapists, my gp and my counsellor it is apparent that they all see a different resolution for me and are not pulling together for the common good . Want desperately to get off this train I nearly lost a good friend due to my uncontrollable behaviour and the only light at the moment is she was prepared to forgive me ( but as she said this time)